11/23/2009: Denial is a way of life for some disabled people but you have to face the reality of who you are now and accept some limitations. After living in the country and losing our business and all our possessions we finally realized we had made some bad decisions based on my desires and my not being able to come to the realization that things were different now and I was asking my wife to do what I used to do so I could enjoy the benefits. We spent her inheritance in 5 years and had to start over again with less than we had before she got her inheritance. I just can't live the able-bodied life anymore and now I realize this and will go on and try to make better decisions from now on.